New Month

Didn't play at all the last week. Busy with school and life. This month I need to get my $475 bonus, so need to play alot of hands. Hopefully that will motivate me to get hands in. Just played a long session of cash while playing a 26/90. Cash I ran WAY above ev...

Was a long session so there were alot of pots, but I ran top set into a turned flush (allin on turn after alot of flop action), and I filled up. I also ran KK into AA for a full stack allin preflop and straightened out. So I made $220 on the 1800 hand session, despite an allin EV of -80. Good start to the month. I played mostly good, a few smaller pots that I didn't think I played great, but the tables were pretty good with some donation stations.
The 26/90 I played was a slow start, and was short stacked. Chopped AK v A6 which coulda given me a nice stack. But I got it rolling, abused the bubble, and got to the final table with a big stack. Things went so so early on, but the short stacks busted. I got into HU with a big stack. Playing against a guy who was super tight, but played super weird. I abused him with just over min raises every hand, and he kept folding. I had 180k to his 70k or so. Then he open shoves (which he never really did), I call KQ and lose to T3h when he flops a flush. So then I have to battle back, get the chip lead. I won a pot off him, then next hand he open shoves for 110k, I call A8, and he flushes out again with J7d. I almost came back again, but ran Q8 into QJ for the 2nd place finish. Just ran too crappy HU to put him away even though I was destroying him otherwise. Those were like $225 bad beats (cause first is $225 more), so I guess I can call it even from the run good in the cash games.

Gonna be doing some grinding to get my midyear bonus cleared. But other than that, I'm very unmotivated. I've been thinking about quitting poker, but the competitor in me makes me think I should at least keep getting iron man each month to keep that going. I'm also thinking about setting some goal for money I want to have in the bank before quitting. Cause right now my lack of goals is hurting me. I know I'm not going to play poker forever... I reached my goal of building up a roll, maintaining good bankroll management, and saving some money up in the bank. My mom told me the more I can save now the better... for when I want to buy a house. So maybe I should focus on something practical like that to keep me going.

At the same time I don't want poker to ever get in the way of the rest of my life. Once my summer school classes end in a month I will have a lot more time, but I'm not so sure I want to use that time on poker. I'm going to be trying to get a job/internship for the fall. But if I can't land an actuary job... the idea of getting some $15/hr job to get experience isn't that appealing me... when I could be making $35+/hr in poker. I'm going to focus on clearing this bonus in the next two weeks and in the meantime set some poker goals.

I should do some sort of midyear report, or month recap (especially since I didn't do one last month), but I'm not sure I'll get around to it. At least July is off to a good start.

-Boooom